The past week has been a devastating one for many families. Zubeidat Tsarnaev's is one of them.
But the mother of the two suspects in the Boston Marathon bombings remains resolute in her belief that her sons were not involved in the attack.
She told CNN's Nick Paton Walsh in Makhachkala, Dagestan, that she believes the tragedy that killed three people and injured dozens more was staged and that the bombing was fake.
Zubeidat Tsarnaev has seen a video supporting the idea that it was "something like a really big play," she said, with "paint instead of blood like it is made-up."
Does she really believe that?
"That's what I want to know, because everybody's talking about it: that this is a show, that's what I want to know. That's what I want to understand," replied Tsarnaev.
Paton Walsh asked whether she had seen the news images of the actual bombings and the suffering they caused.
"I haven't," she answered.
But her disbelief wavered when she spoke of the victims.
"I really feel sorry for all of them. Really feel sorry for all of them," she said, her voice cracking. But she is convinced that her sons, Dzhokhar, 19, and Tamerlan, 26, were not involved.
"There is something wrong," she said as she sought to articulate her confusion.
The elder son was killed after the two allegedly violently resisted and fled police.
Tamerlan's body remains unclaimed. Dzhokhar is hospitalized with severe injuries and faces terrorism and murder charges.
His mother said at a news conference Thursday that authorities "already told us they will not let us see Dzhokhar."
'I have nothing'
She broke down in sobs as she tried to describe her torment as a "loving mother of two kids" faced with the events of the past week.
"This is really crazy. I can't even, I can't even describe it," she told Paton Walsh, looking drained. "I have no strength. I have nothing. I have no sleep. I am just like dead. Like a dead person."
Her husband, Anzor Tsarnaev, said Thursday that he expected to fly soon from Dagestan to the United States.
But those plans may be in limbo after Zubeidat Tsarnaev said she'd called an ambulance Thursday to take her husband to a hospital in Makhachkala. It was not immediately known whether Anzor Tsarnaev was ever admitted to a hospital and, if so, if he is still there.
If he ever makes it to the United States, his wife is not expected to be with him.
Zubeidat Tsarnaev is wanted on 2012 felony charges of shoplifting and property damage in Massachusetts, according to court officials.
The family lived there before she jumped bail, and they moved the same year to Dagestan, a semi-autonomous region of Russia, officials said.
She told Paton Walsh that she would like to travel to the United States. "I really want to see how it is going to end," she said. "I want to see my Tamerlan, if it's possible."
The felony charges weren't "a big deal" and are unimportant to her, she said.
"What I care about is only the death of my oldest son, who I think was killed, and my youngest one, who is really ... needs the support."